Dear Presley,
It’s the last day of 2017. You’ve been gone for 7 months, and I already feel like you have missed a lifetime of moments. The time without you doesn’t get any better, in fact I feel like as time goes on... it’s getting worse some days. It’s like reality has set in, and I’m feeling it more now than ever.I spent more of 2017 without you than with you. Holidays were hard and birthdays didn’t seem fair. You would of been 4 this past July, and starting kindergarten in 2018. I keep thinking about how big of a social butterfly you would be in school and with other kids. You always managed to make friends wherever you went. We would be school shopping for you just like your big brother this summer. I’m positive you would pick some girlie extravagant book bag that I would love too. Righley will be 9 next month! We have one more year before we are in the double digits. He’s excited that he is going to have another little sister. I’m sure you were dancing in heaven when you found out as well. He told me he didn’t like any of the names we picked out, because he wants her name to be Presley. I told him that’s your name, but that she can have Grace in her name as well just like her big sister. He’s starting to talk about you again a lot more. At first I think it was really hard for him and he wasn’t sure if it would hurt me talking about you. He’s been struggling the past month with losing you, even if he doesn’t tell me.... a mommy always knows!I still keep praying for a sign or a dream of some sort to know your okay. I still wake up some mornings thinking your still here until reality sets in. This was going to be the year I was going to let you get your toes done with me. We never got to take you to see a movie in a movie theater, just the drive in and I just wonder how much bigger you would be now. I’m sure your hair would be so long, and hopefully still curly. I know that Heaven must be amazing, but I really do wish they had visiting hours. I could use some I love you way mores, and snuggles from you. I miss you sweet girl. I’m not the only one who misses you, everyone does. Even people who don’t know you have grown to love you, but what’s not to love? I’m sure your shining bright in heaven, just like you did here on earth. I love you way way more, Mommy
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