Dreaming

Dreaming of you

Dreams are as close as I can get to holding you. Usually when I get the dreams with you in them, I'm always holding you in my arms. It's almost like I know in my dreams not to let you go.Before bed, I try to think of everything about you so that I might be able to dream of you. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't. I have the strangest dreams, but they still seem to be perfect because you are in them.Last night was one of those dreams. I was at a school dance, and there you were. I held you the entire time. I didn't want to dance with anyone else. I didn't want to go anywhere. I just wanted to be there with you.When I woke up this morning, I felt so refreshed and awake, but then reality hit me like it does every time. You're not here. Your laugh is gone and I don't get to hold you anymore. It's an achy feeling without you here.I always wonder if dreams are my way of reaching you or if they ever mean anything. I feel like the ones that mean the most are the ones I don't really remember.Today, I'm all out of advice for myself and for others. I'm starting to get tired of trying to be so strong all of the time. It's exhausting, but I know what you would want and I know your cheering me on from heaven.It's okay to have moments, to be weak, and to cry. It's okay to grieve, to want to dream, and to love so much it hurts. It's not okay to give up. I have to keep going until I'm with you again.Presley,I love you way way more.When I woke up this morning, I felt so refreshed and awake, but then reality hit me like it does every time. You're not here. Your laugh is gone and I don't get to hold you anymore. It's an achy feeling without you here.